I find myself feeling guilty over the missing days that I did not post an entry.
Lying in bed, in pain and discomfort - makes the past 2 weeks - a blur.
If it weren't for my laptop as a connection to the world, I would have lost it for sure.
In the past 20 years or so, I have learned all about chronic pain and how to live with it.
The past 7 years have been amazingly easy, compared to the 4 years prior to them.
When Brendan was 2 yrs old (1994) my oldest brother John and I were were dropping him off at my mother in laws, to babysit him while I went off to my part time job.
While waiting at a red light, we were struck from behind and forced out into the middle of the intersection.
It was by the grace of God, that the light had JUST turned green for the oncoming traffic to turn left - AND that the oncoming vehicle was taking off from a stopped position, rather than approaching the turn in motion.
The impact totalled my little old station wagon, Brendan was scared, but not hurt thanks to his car seat - my brother John had a sore knee, that was rammed into the door handle and I - unfortunately - happened to be looking in my rear view mirror as the large commercial truck that hit us, approached.
So of course, I tensed up and the impact from behind forced me into the steering wheel and the seat belt across my chest did it's job like an iron bar forced against and across my upper torso.
Afterwards I shook it off, nervous about being late to work - filed the necessary info, dropped Brendan off at his grandma's - all on sheer adrenaline.
After a couple hours at work, it became apparent that my neck and back were starting to really ache badly.
I left and from then on, I can't begin to describe the ranges of pain I have felt over the years.
Neurologists, orthopedists, no one was ever able to make diagnosing or physical therapy - a positive thing.
So many MRI's and nerve conduction tests - all accompanied by YEARS of pain, numbness and discomfort - and a future with 2 herniated discs to keep me through my golden years...
Finally about 10 years ago, I discovered simultaneous acupuncture and chiropractic treatments offered the best relief.
Which have given me years of virtually pain free memories.
Once in a blue moon, however - it reoccurs in way that knocks the air out of me.
And this is what happened 2 weeks ago.
I lost a week of my life, laying in pain - in my bed.
And of course when MOM is the sick one, who takes care of her?
My husband went to work as usual.
And since I couldn't drive - he took the car.
Leaving me home alone with both boys, since Julian wasn't able to get to the Boys and Girls Club in the afternoons.
This of course, initiated many fights, squabbles and spats - between them - and me lying in my room, screaming at the top of my lungs to KNOCK IT OFF! - but really, how much of a threat is a woman who can't get out of bed?
Meals consisted of yogurt and anything that did not require cooking at the stove.
It was the longest week of my life...
The following week, of which today is day 7 (overall 14) - has been much better - as long as I don't sit.
Sadly, this includes driving, as well.
So driving my spouse to work - each morning at the exact same light - the pain starts.
And by the time I get home, I am heading straight for the ice pack.
I do everything to avoid sitting - which includes laying on my stomach on my bed to use my laptop.
When it is time to once again pick UP my husband at work, I have moved around enough during the day - that the ride is bearable.
Bedtime needs ibuprofen, ice or heat - and LOTS of pillows.
I have made it this far, so I suppose I can continue along this vein.
HOWEVER, I have yard work that needs to be done, cleaning that needs my attention and a fridge that is in desperate need of my care.
Julian hasn't had me to get him out there to practice for soccer and his new season of AYSO - starts with practice tomorrow.
We have to shop for cleats and chin pads by Thursday and the next two weekends bring with them back to back birthday parties of close friends of his - which means shopping for gifts, as well.
I need to get better NOW and can only hope, my discs are listening....and willing to cooperate.
Peace, Love and No Pain.
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